Archive for Downtime

Saturday night

Something relaxing about sitting in bed listening to a great tune and writing about nothing. Beats the mindless search for entertainment on youtube. Might as well do a general update, the new job has been nothing but a pain in the ass. Apart from getting flack from two of the supervisors, I keep missing shifts from the center.

It’s not like I don’t know what’s going on; it’s very evident what is going on, trying to weed out the good ones from the bad. Or maybe it’s just the general temperament of certain people. All I know is that negative reinforcement might create tougher individuals but when it comes in a situation where other factors and pressures are involved it is not going to help produce optimum employees. And besides it’s not the army. All they’ll manage is to lose a great, nay super, employee.  Oh well, I might quit soon considering I’m not making more money and actually losing money and my happiness. Shame though I have a great time with the guys there.

And I really need to find my own room soon, time’s a running short.

Fees, being lonely, this midsummer’s simmering tragedy
constantly on a steady low heat never a sign of retreating
can’t afford repeating my mistakes, it’s do or die, do I play it straight on through
or hesitate the just amount due, hoping to make long fading dreams come true
of love, freedom and escaping these fascist preachers, brain and soul leaches
all the haters, ignorant segregators, mindless instigators, blind cloned sheep

make life a living hell for the ones trying to break free and make sense, struggles
abound within and around, on this blue speck we’re living in. Do I blend in and phase out
or make shift the course of this history we’re all living in.

Oh well time to watch something and goto sleep because I feel the midnight munchies coming on.

When the going gets tough

I walk a lonely road, The only one that I have ever known, Don’t know where it goes, But it’s home to me and I walk alone – Greenday

Another lousy start to a week. Last week it was two canceled shifts, annoying hypocritcal roommate coming back, dealing with the same ol’ trivial nuisance of overbearing friends etc. To lead into this week so fluently, lastnight’s show revealed that the bills were around 500 for two months. Which was followed by another canceled shift today morning.

Definitely not in the mood for studying. Feel like i’m pushing a mountain and the harder I push the deeper I dig myself into the ground. It feels like a total eclipse of the heart and mind. Really wish I had more money. Contrary to popular belief, money buys you happiness. But I guess I can’t complain much. As much as life is so stressful right now, it sure beats not working and living. Strugglin yet making your own money is so much more rewarding. Who knows, maybe one day I might be able to get away from certain types of people altogether. For good. that’s enough no class writing for now. Peace.

 

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me, My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating, Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me, ‘Til then I walk alone - Greenday

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