I’ve recently embarked on a long needed plunge, excuse the pun, into swimming. Swimming had been a dream of mine when I was younger, just something about it, I can’t remember what exactly, when I was kid that was so alluring. And then when I attempted to learn, it was beyond disappointing, on my own and with help from friends and others.
Now it’s other reasons, one of which is that I finally just want to be able to swim once and for all. And the fact I have a liking for swim wear. It’s hard to find or even browse and buy something to my liking. Owing to the fact that men have to wear over sized leggings. It’s always plagued me about not having the same level of freedom as women, in the west, to wear whatever and not having to feel awkward or an oddity. But as time passes and being on this side of the Atlantic and exposure to alternative lifestyles has given me some boldness.
That’s another issue, a non-issue as far as I’m concerned. The thing I’m pestered by is the fact that I’d made a few hasty purchases and unfortunately took off the tag thinking that it was a sale item and the money spent on it justifiable either way. Plus the point about being unable to browse or purchase something that isn’t too ‘popular’. Oh and not being able to try it, because of the aforementioned as well as the time it would take for that.
The sale definitely had a huge influence on it. It also made sure that the right sizes were gone, leaving only the large to x-large. I’d made a purchase on a regular pair or trunks fearing I wouldn’t be able to able wear anything snug or tiny, but fortunately returned them. Instead I bought a pair or endurance trunks, a bit long for my liking but the only ones I could find; those strengthened my resolve. I would’ve preferred the regular square cut which I’d tried on a few years ago. The endurance pair are a good compromise, being snug but not too small and a good way to ease in. I can’t justify wearing something ‘inappropriate’ until I can actually swim; then, I wouldn’t care what people think. Maybe I’m too hasty to judge, this is a new country closer to where it’s appropriate.
I have accumulated a fair bit of swim wear throughout the years, and recently bought a few more. I still do regret not getting a few good ones a few years ago when I had the chance, as well as leaving behind my shorts accidently when I moved here. Then there is the pair of square cut trunks that are probably a size too small, otherwise it would’ve been perfect in my collection. This is all a bit obsessive and I need to curb my enthusiasm somewhat, but why should I. Right now I regret one purchase, it’s a medium coverage but the very badly cut shape of it makes me unsure of it. I have something black that’s much better to boot. Right now I would really love to get a hand on those square cut ones.
Anyway, all of this is finally for swimming and I’ve signed up for lessons which start this thursday and in tune with that I’d planned on getting waxed. I was supposed to get my arms, chest and legs done, but my beauty therapist, just noticed therapist is made up of “the and rapist”, only had enough for my arms and chest. Which means I need to go there again, which means cancelling another shift at work, bummer, missing quite a few this week. And I’m a bit apprehensive about taking my pants off in front of a stranger and having the person so close. It’s a woman, but hopefully it’ll be completely professional and I won’t get aroused for no reason. And to add to the anxiety, I plan on wearing a thong to get rid of more hair from the back. She does do intimate waxing but only for women. I’m glad, because even though I want that done as well, I’d rather get it done in a professional salon. This happens to be a home based business. She’s nice enough though, we had a nice chat the last session. Actually I wouldn’t mind if she did do it because it’s quite inexpensive there and plus saves the hassle of going to different places.
I am a bit reserved about having it done right before the day of the lesson. My chest has gone all blotchy and been dotted with whiteheads. Hope it wears off before thursday and the same doesn’t happen on my legs. I’ve remedied it with some personal therapy to hasten the healing. So far it looks like it’s getting better.
The next thing I have to do is improve my abs and get bigger and better toned legs. Then I will be strutting my stuff like it’s nobody’s business. So here’s to a nice hairless, chiseled, sexy body with tasteful yet appropriate dressage and finally being able to swim.
