”I try so hard to be just a friend, sometimes I think I might be totally disinterested, but why then do I feel this way about you, why I am so drawn. The fool I am.”
Well spent most of the day today doing nothing as usual, I did however get a few hours of studying though. The rest is a shamble of procrastination, stressing, hanging out with friends, jealousy, the lowly feeling of international restraints and the torture of being around a crush and wanting more – a whole lot more. Plus, wondering if I have enough money to pay rent. A classic. Also, if I should pay off my debt or not, hmm. Well pretty sucky blog I shall quit while i’m behind tonight. Sleep here I come.
“I feel sad when you’re not around, sadder still when you’re near yet so far. I can’t bear to think what I feel might not be real or we’ll part ways someday. I can’t stand it when you’re talking about going away, I can’t bear much at all and you’re not even mine. So why do I care or even try. This life I live is a lie.”
Tags: broken-heart, confusion, crush, daily, despair, love, money, rant, stress
